What will you know if you know one's fate or future... someone is
closed to yourself and even someone is in thousands miles away from
you?? it seems that you'll be stabbed by sharp dagger and then you'll
die in misery, hahahaha!
For some moments, i saw someone's life might be over in this world, his/her life closed to the death.. and.. what can you do?? nothing than hopeless.. that i can't do anything to avoid or even to stop the time, so that it wont be occur.
Once, in 2001, i already knew that my grandmother wouldnt have any longer life than a week. When i visited her in hospital, i just could hold her hand and cried.. i knew, her life must have been short and i didnt know what to do..
I went back to the city i studied in. and at 21.30 pm on monday, i cried suddenly on the bed. My bedroom friend wondered, why i cried. I told her that my grandmother would pass away in next 1/2 hour again.. and she didnt believe because i wasnt with my grandmom at that time and i didnt call my family in another town.
Tomorrow morning at 7 am.. my father called me... telling me that my grandmom had passed away at 22.00 pm sharp. I cried so loud.. i already knew she's gonna die at 22.00 pm but i couldnt do anything to prevent or even to stop the time.
It's not only for grandmom, but for everyone i know. Last time for my uncle. I said to his son carefully that we'd better take him home than we spent much time and money to stay him in hospital. I visited him on saturday, but i saw he's gonna leave us on tuesday.. and that's happened again..
I cried my self for knowing someone's life.. even i can cry my self for knowing my cats' life.. even they are just cats! why should i know something behind something??? it's really crash my heart into pieces..
Even..for what i regret is: why also i should know someone's life that even he/she doesnt know myself?? what will my soul be brought?? to him or her?? it's impossible.. i feel i need anti depressant drugs to control my emotional or expression of clairscient. Knowing someone's deep emotion deeply hurts me alot... hurts me..
And it's always gonna hurt me when i know your self.. but i can't touch you...because of the miles.. thousands miles away...but i can feel your resonance... and that's killing me...
to be continued to part 15..
For some moments, i saw someone's life might be over in this world, his/her life closed to the death.. and.. what can you do?? nothing than hopeless.. that i can't do anything to avoid or even to stop the time, so that it wont be occur.
Once, in 2001, i already knew that my grandmother wouldnt have any longer life than a week. When i visited her in hospital, i just could hold her hand and cried.. i knew, her life must have been short and i didnt know what to do..
I went back to the city i studied in. and at 21.30 pm on monday, i cried suddenly on the bed. My bedroom friend wondered, why i cried. I told her that my grandmother would pass away in next 1/2 hour again.. and she didnt believe because i wasnt with my grandmom at that time and i didnt call my family in another town.
Tomorrow morning at 7 am.. my father called me... telling me that my grandmom had passed away at 22.00 pm sharp. I cried so loud.. i already knew she's gonna die at 22.00 pm but i couldnt do anything to prevent or even to stop the time.
It's not only for grandmom, but for everyone i know. Last time for my uncle. I said to his son carefully that we'd better take him home than we spent much time and money to stay him in hospital. I visited him on saturday, but i saw he's gonna leave us on tuesday.. and that's happened again..
I cried my self for knowing someone's life.. even i can cry my self for knowing my cats' life.. even they are just cats! why should i know something behind something??? it's really crash my heart into pieces..
Even..for what i regret is: why also i should know someone's life that even he/she doesnt know myself?? what will my soul be brought?? to him or her?? it's impossible.. i feel i need anti depressant drugs to control my emotional or expression of clairscient. Knowing someone's deep emotion deeply hurts me alot... hurts me..
And it's always gonna hurt me when i know your self.. but i can't touch you...because of the miles.. thousands miles away...but i can feel your resonance... and that's killing me...
to be continued to part 15..
